Seriously? I even want to get away from myself, how could other people want to be around me? I’m insane, psychotic. I can’t even concentrate on one damn train of thought right now. I just want to run away from my problems, myself, and just keep running. I want to lose myself. I don’t want to think anymore, I don’t want to try and sort anything out.
just one shit night after another… lol, might as well stay home on my birthday and sleep all day… fuck man, i can’t even concentrate on one thought. i’m too scared, worried, and upset. fuck my leg shit right now. doesn’t even fucking matter. i need to go for a walk or fresh air or some shit.. i mean, reevaluate myself. always commenting others to but when the fuck have i looked at myself? i’m a stupid ass.
that’s what i get for being a stupid ass and a screw up…
i need to get the fuck to the doctor. i seriously am numb the whole left leg.. and i’m trying not to freak the fuck out. but whatever man. .